ho hum!

In a concerted effort not to make this space a venting space for my day to day busyness, mundane ness, and altogether a summary of the semi boring reality of my day to day life I have effectively shut the place up.

But I miss the writing – and am battling the angst of shutting up shop altogether vs finding the motivation, and a reason to write.

I miss the beginnings of a community I was beginning to find online – writers who touched by and who went on to inspire me – whose lives and persons I caught slim glimpses of.

I miss giving my far flung friends and family a place where they can catch up on my thoughts – definitely easier then long newsy emails.

I feel sad when I think about pulling the plug on the almost two years of writing. I started this blog in the long lonely long days of full time motherhood – it was a way of expressing, recording and reaching out.

Now my days are so structured that by the time I hit the couch at about 9:30, my intention to write withers to slumped exhaustion. I barely have time to skim through my personal email and do the absolute essentials before bed and then the whole thing begins again.

So the next two months are going to be my litmus test. I need some inspiration to write and I am off to find it. I could of course twitter about an endless variety of things:

• The more amusing aspects of being PA to a CEO
• My first bicycle crash – me splayed out in the middle of High Street Ken – (still avoiding that back brake – I pulled hard on the front – Yes! Really!
• A couple of months of serial visitors who came and stayed and brought much joy – reminding me of what I love about this city
• My most awesome new Sunday night yoga class
• A couple of great girls nights out
• Endless conversations with my Chi – who seems to be always one step ahead of me
• The darkness of winter!

And maybe I will.

Wish me luck.

Comments

[Val]

Please don't stop writing, even if you don't post often those days it's always a joy to read you, and you are my little window into London.

Are you ok after your bike accident? What Chi with you?

[jessica]

Dearest - I have to say that your blog has helped me feel more in touch with you / your life - given the poor actual contact we've had over the past year. The downside being that, although I live half an hour away, its made me lazy about actually phoning to chat...and that's a guilty admission (and I apologise!). In my busy work driven life when I barely have time to touch sides with my own family, i love being able to touch sides with yours, often when I am at work at 11pm, just taking a 5 minute break. So my vote is with you still writing when you feel like it - I like reading your blog!